This is the most crushing weight of emotion, to be let down, frustrated from things that seem vital. It could be an appointment or a promise or an event associated with much preparation or anticipation. There is quite a lot of it about in life. Regarding property, we take measures to avoid it with warranties and insurance that have their appeal in countering disappointment. Some things are personal and depend on people. These can be highly invested and anticipated with our hopes, dreams, and desires, but there is no warranty for specific service, only remuneration which is rarely an adequate remedy. What is the antidote for dissapointment? Can we avoid dissappointment by locking ourselves away, never trusting, never risking, refusing to take chances or opportunity?
Yeshua had twelve disciples among his many followers. Within the twelve there seemed to be an inner circle of Peter, Andrew, James and John based on closeness, rather than selection, perhaps. Yeshua poured himself into these men, His friends, through mentoring, instruction, teaching, demonstrating and sharing as only God can do. They often asked questions and received explanations and insight from Yeshua. He frequently chided them for lack of faith or acting on merely human reasoning. He imparted spiritual power to them. He let them know they were special and prophesied about their future. Most of all He revealed Father God to them. He demonstrated the true meaning of scripture and fulfilled the prophecies of the Messiah. He prepared them for the coming indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit and much more.
A case could be made that even at the end of this period of discipleship, the disciples were still a mess – a disappointment? They asked to see the Father, Yeshua replied, “…anyone who has seen me, has seen the Father”. (John 14: 9). When Yeshua was in tremendous stress facing death on a cross, He sought agreement in prayer, but the disciples could not stay awake. (Luke 22: 45-46). They didn’t understand and refused to believe when they where told, “We have seen the Lord”, by other followers. (John 20: 25; Mark 16:14). After His resurrection some still doubted. “Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.’ (Matthew 28: 16-17). They questioned His actions, timing, and purpose.
Was Yeshua disappointed? No, He knew that the Spirit would accomplish all God’s will through these weak fallible men. Yeshua did not put His trust in men. “Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Festival, many people saw the signs he was performing and believed in his name. But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all people. He did not need any testimony about mankind, for he knew what was in each person.” (John 2: 23-25). Yet, we are disappointed by others, even by ourselves, if we are bold enough to admit it.
So, our trust must be in God alone. It’s never to late to trust Him, as long as we have breath. Can you recall a great disappointment that still weighs you down? Are you playing it safe and hiding to avoid further disappointment? Take your disappointment to Yeshua and leave it with Him in exchange for His peace. As the song says, trade your sorrows for His joy. He is master over all the things, especially those we cannot control. He took your sins upon Himself and paid our price; He will take our burdens as well. Have faith and let Him set you free from past, present and future disappointment. “For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” (Col. 1: 13-14).